Wednesday, 27 February 2013

Life and people in it

   Hello people of the world, I am here with a brand spanking new blogpost for your entertainment. This one is about society. Well, people to be exact. When I say two faced what do you suddenly think of? Enemies, ex-mates, girlfriends, boyfriends? You're right if you thought of any of those. But when I think of them I think of me being bullied by my so-called mates. The ones who say they'll stick up for you, the ones who spread lies and muck about you behind your back.

   So, society. What is it? My view on society is life. We live our life, we find a partner, have sex, have offspring and then die. But I'm going into detail. The people we talk too aren't what they seem. They are like glaciers. We see what they put on, we see the lies and the mask. We don't actually see their true colours. Its amazing what we miss when we meet someone for the first time. So why do we trust someone who we don't know...?

   People and the glacier image:

    So, you're in a bar and you see a good looking person. You make the first move and its successful and hey presto you get talking. You see the outside of that person, not the inside. You both fall in love and you get together. And you trust them. Is that a bit strange? Fast forward a couple of months, you get told by various people that your partner is cheating on you. That they doesn't love you. That they hate you. But yet you still trust them. Nothing wrong in that, but you push those accusations away. Then you find out they are true. But oh no, you can't believe them because afterall, that person promised they wouldn't hurt you. Now that people is that hidden bit you never saw in that bar. The real person within.

   Thats the glacier. You see the 3rd of that person above the water but you never see the rest. The rest being the truth. Why hide your true self? Why lie? Its misleading. But thats life and thats how people work I'm afraid.

Friends who aren't really friends:

   Now onto friends. How many friends do you really have? How many can you actually confide in? I know that I have very few friends that I can talk to properly. You know what the best way to see if they are mates. To have a laugh with them. To insult them gently, have so banter with them. If they take that on the offensive then you know that they were waiting for a reason to dislikle you. If you try talking about them about something and they don't seem bothered, then you know why. But what worries me is that they call themselves mates but in actual fact they are the ones who are spreading crap about you. They are the ones who lie about sticking up for you. They know that they have mates who will back them up if they started on you. They know that you can do nothing about it at all. Again, the glacier image. So why do they do it? I will never know.

   Talking from personal experience I know how it feels to be in that situation. It's not nice and whatever you say to make it better falls on deaf ears. I have been in that situation so may times that I trust very few people these days.

Family who aren't what they seem:

   Family. Mum and dad. When you are born, you are the best thing ever. Nothing can get any better. But that changes when you grow up. Things change. Arguments happen and you are always in the centre of them. You get blamed for things. Your dad gets angry and your mum gets upset. As a child your hear your mum crying and pleading your dad not to hurt her, you hear your dad shout and you hear a sound of your dad hitting your mum. Your mum sreams louder and you cry. Next day, your mum and dad aren't talking, the house is quiet and your dad goes out never to return. Every night you hear your mum sobbing, when you grow up, you understand things clearer.

   You seem disconnected from your family and you don't feel like family no more. That isn't the glacier effect no but how the effect starts. You experience something which makes you recluse into your shell, this is where I think it all starts. What do you think? Please tell me if you agree or disagree :)

Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Fear & adrenaline



   Fear and adrenaline? What is so significant about these? Are they important or not? Well they are. They are the things which make us human, it makes us real. Without fear we have no feeling. Without adrenaline, we have no options.

FEAR-

   It is a human instinct which we grow up with. We can fear anyone and anything. Clowns, spiders. Even ourselves. I noticed that I feared myself. I was in constant danger of myself. For what I would do to myself and others if I let that fear take over. I used to live in my own world where I would always be looking over my shoulder. Always running from myself. It scared me a lot and I didn’t want to tell anyone, I didn’t want to say anything. I used to hurt myself to get rid of the fear; I used to cut to numb my feeling to it. It was endless. No relief, just pain. I also have other fears like clowns. Gawd, they scare the hell out of me. It must be their rather insane laughter and twisted sense of humour which does it. Or it could be that they were really strange. Getting the shudders just thinking about them now.

   I know a few people with unusual fears. Socks, yes, those things you put on your feet. It’s funny to read but believe me, she is terrified of socks. Here’s some more:

- Hats
- Rings
- People
- TV
- Music
- Spiders
- And the end of the world

   My view on fear is that it’s a warning system and a lesson. We learn to feel fear and then we learn to avoid it. My fear of myself is still here, I avoid slipping back in my own world, not just for me but for others, for those who love me. It’s hard to explain in word and the only way to explain is to go back to that world and feel it again. If you would like me to do that then I will, but it will hurt me.

ADRENALINE-

   Here’s a question. Would you fight to the bitter end or run away? Fight or flight? Most of you will say fight but would you really? When it came to it, would you actually fight? Picture this:

You’re in a trench with bodies of your friends who are dead. You are on your own with only your fists and no weapons. You have been hiding in the cold dark mud. Hungry and thirsty. You are always hoping it would end and that you are in a warm bed back home. There is no hope for survival. Your senses are acute and you can hear people walking towards you. Chances are that they are hunting for survivors and there is only you. What would you do? Fight to the bitter end hungry, cold, thirsty, weak and hopeless. Or would you run?

   Adrenaline is something which gives you a high. It prepares you to fight. It can prepare you to run too. I would personally run, take my chances and run. I wouldn’t care if I died but I would die a proud man. It is basically your body releasing endorphins, no not dolphins, those endorphins then go to your brain and stimulates everything. Your sight, hearing, smell, feel, thinking and touch. It gives us an edge which then gives us two choices. Fight being one of them and flight being the other.

   So there we have it. My first new blogpost. Not the best but it is something which may interest you. Until next time, keep reading.

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Wednesday, 9 January 2013

I'm back

   Hello, guten tag, bonjour and HEY!!!! Yes, I am back. No, it's not a hoax, it is actually real!! I am back. And I am back for good. It has been too long and I was missing this blog. And now I am back. Well, it feels like home. Have you missed me? You have? Aww, well I missed you too.

   I will put my depression campaign to one side but i WILL NOT forget about it. And I will be doing more psychological blogposts. Things like Fear and Adrenaline. I'll be giving you my view, my thoughts and my theory on that. I promise to make it fun to read. But yea, I'M BACK!!!!!!!

   Anyway, I'll get straight into my research for my new blogpost. I am going in depth with this one. I promise you won't be let down... well i hope you aren't let down. Until my next blogpost. Ciao.

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